I am using this piece for my RISD application, so I was given a prompt to create a piece for. It also conveniently fits in my concentrations and I tottttaaallllly didn't do that on purpose. Anyways, the prompt was to create a piece based on the word "deconstruct". My immediate thought was about the deconstruction of ourselves because I have a habit to tear myself down. I began thinking of ways I could tell this story. The word deconstruction made me think of building, and my first thought connected to building was legos because what mature and wise eighteen year old wouldn't think of legos. However, in the end these legos turned into simple building blocks because i forgot to add the little circles that are on top of legos. Anyways, i decided it would be interesting to show someone breaking off little legos from their body. I chose a crouched position because the legs were a larger surface that would then make the lego hole larger and more of a focal point. In general i like the concept behind the piece. I also really like the color choices I made and THE SLEEVE OF THE SHIRT IS SO NICE. I don't mean to toot my own horn but i am very proud of that sleeve. Fabric is kind of difficult but I made that sleeve my... very nice drawing. I do however wish I took more time on this piece but I have soooo many more pieces to make that I am on a serious time crunch. Overall, I am happy with the piece, especially that sleeve.
I had a lot of fun making this piece. I love making portraits and it's been awhile since i've had the opportunity to make one. This piece in particular was one I really enjoyed making because it felt extremely personal and relevant to my life events at the time of its creation. The drawing is essentially about how we distort our emotions on a daily basis. The feelings we express are often not the true emotions we feel. For a variety of reasons, we change our expressions to fit the ideals of society. We may feel ashamed to feel the way we do, or feel the need to be strong for other people. Regardless of the specifics, we all experience this. For me personally, I had reached a point where the people in my life made my feel as if my emotions were a burden to them, and one of the things i hate most in life is feeling like a burden. As a result, I changed my expressions to fit the emotions I knew others would prefer me to have.
I really like how I chose to depict this topic. I knew I wanted to play around with the idea of hands pulling at facial features that are vital to physically expressing our emotions. However, I ran into a problem when I realized the hands were too clunky and covered up too much of the face, which is the focal point. I then had the idea of having the hands hold hooks that could be punctured through the skin and pulled to symbolize forcing of emotions. I liked this idea even more because anytime i can add a splash of blood i am all over it. I like the execution of the project as well. I think I did a good job technically wise. It was also a good experience for me to have to opportunity to create different skin tones. I generally am confined to my own skin tone because most of my portraits are self portraits because convincing people to let you draw them is surprisingly difficult. All in all I really like this piece.