This was the first piece I made in a very long time. Recently, making art had lost its appeal. I no longer enjoyed it and being forced to make it became a painful reminder of the sudden change in who I was. In order to not fail my class, I knew i was going to have to make something. I tired for weeks, starting multiple projects and throwing them all away or destroying them beyond recognition. I decided to do what I loved most, portraits. I've always loved making portraits, so i figured if I was going to find interest in anything it would most likely be a portrait. I tired sketching and it seemed like even portraits couldn't spark my interest. In frustration, I stopped (Yes, I know this wasn't the best thing to do, but it happened.). Finally, one day i felt a little better and decided to give it a try again. This time i broke out my scratch board and decided to commit. Once i started I knew i couldn't scrap it because this dang scratchboard was like fifteen dollars and I was not going to waste it. To my surprise, I actually enjoyed making this. I like the texture and movement in the lines. I feel like its almost like the lines are moving and therefore not permanent. This mirrors how I hope the person I am right now is only temporary. There's really not much to say about this. Its not technically challenging or very dynamic, but its probably the most significant piece i will make this whole year. Its hopefully the start of the end of my artist block.
This piece is kind of just "meh". Theres nothing necessarily wrong with it, but theres nothing that makes it an exceptional piece. I do, however, really enjoy the mans hand/arm. The highlights where the veins are add a strong sense of realism. I also love the arm hairs. They were the most enjoyable part of the piece to draw. The girls hand isn't my favorite thing ever. It just seems a little too straight which throws me off. Originally this was going to be one piece of three, but theres never enough time to actually do and execute well what I want to do in this class. Had I been able to actually do what I wanted, I probably would have liked this piece a lot more. It wouldn't feel so bland or "meh". This piece hits a sensitive topic for me, so I am probably not going to go in depth about how it fits into my concentration. Long story short, I experienced a series of traumatic events (I am going to let you figure out what that was on your own) and as a result I developed severe anxiety. I get flashbacks and during them I can feel, hear, smell, and see the events that happened to me all over again. This piece depicts one of the sensations I feel during a flashback.
I really hate this piece. It was rushed and you can clearly tell what I did when I didn't feel rushed verses what I did when I did feel rushed. I also feel like its a huge step down from my first pallet knife portrait. The technique is poor, proportions are off, and the color choices are all wrong. The only thing I do like about it is the narrative. This piece plays into my concentration because its about my boyfriend who is apart of my daily life. His personal struggles impact me as well because I try my best to be there for him whenever possible. Essentially the piece is about how he segments his personality into three main traits. These traits take on physical forms in his mind. He has the sadist which has red eyes and white skin. The sadist is the most dominant which is why he is depicted staring directly at the boy. The masochist has stone gray/blue skin and blue eyes. He is also my favorite face that I did because I took the most time doing it. The last personality/person is Empathy. He was described as looking exactly like the boy but a little brighter somehow. This is why Empathy has stronger highlights than the boy. For the background, I went with a dark base with all the colors from the three personalities incorporated. This is because he described the rest of his mind as a mixture of all three. If I were to re do this piece I would put aside more time and not let myself get overly stressed out because when I feel rushed nothing turns out well.
I am using this piece for my RISD application, so I was given a prompt to create a piece for. It also conveniently fits in my concentrations and I tottttaaallllly didn't do that on purpose. Anyways, the prompt was to create a piece based on the word "deconstruct". My immediate thought was about the deconstruction of ourselves because I have a habit to tear myself down. I began thinking of ways I could tell this story. The word deconstruction made me think of building, and my first thought connected to building was legos because what mature and wise eighteen year old wouldn't think of legos. However, in the end these legos turned into simple building blocks because i forgot to add the little circles that are on top of legos. Anyways, i decided it would be interesting to show someone breaking off little legos from their body. I chose a crouched position because the legs were a larger surface that would then make the lego hole larger and more of a focal point. In general i like the concept behind the piece. I also really like the color choices I made and THE SLEEVE OF THE SHIRT IS SO NICE. I don't mean to toot my own horn but i am very proud of that sleeve. Fabric is kind of difficult but I made that sleeve my... very nice drawing. I do however wish I took more time on this piece but I have soooo many more pieces to make that I am on a serious time crunch. Overall, I am happy with the piece, especially that sleeve.
I had a lot of fun making this piece. I love making portraits and it's been awhile since i've had the opportunity to make one. This piece in particular was one I really enjoyed making because it felt extremely personal and relevant to my life events at the time of its creation. The drawing is essentially about how we distort our emotions on a daily basis. The feelings we express are often not the true emotions we feel. For a variety of reasons, we change our expressions to fit the ideals of society. We may feel ashamed to feel the way we do, or feel the need to be strong for other people. Regardless of the specifics, we all experience this. For me personally, I had reached a point where the people in my life made my feel as if my emotions were a burden to them, and one of the things i hate most in life is feeling like a burden. As a result, I changed my expressions to fit the emotions I knew others would prefer me to have.
I really like how I chose to depict this topic. I knew I wanted to play around with the idea of hands pulling at facial features that are vital to physically expressing our emotions. However, I ran into a problem when I realized the hands were too clunky and covered up too much of the face, which is the focal point. I then had the idea of having the hands hold hooks that could be punctured through the skin and pulled to symbolize forcing of emotions. I liked this idea even more because anytime i can add a splash of blood i am all over it. I like the execution of the project as well. I think I did a good job technically wise. It was also a good experience for me to have to opportunity to create different skin tones. I generally am confined to my own skin tone because most of my portraits are self portraits because convincing people to let you draw them is surprisingly difficult. All in all I really like this piece.
This piece was inspired by my pupper, Detour. He had to get surgery awhile ago, and he had to wear an inflatable cone around his neck. I always joked that he looks like he has a inflatable tube around his neck and that he looks like he is about to go swimming. Therefore, I decided to make my joke come to life. I really enjoyed making this piece. I love the color pallet I used. The blue, purple, and pink all look really cohesive and playful to match the light hearted subject matter. When I started out, I was afraid of making my dog's fur. He is all white, so I wasn't quiet sure how I was going to add darks and lights to white fur. I ended up painting an all blue base, waiting for it to dry, then adding white over it to get the depth I needed. This piece in general required a lot of layering. The reflection started out as a mirrored image of my dog. I then painted strips of color for water over the mirror image once it dried. Layering also occured in the sky. I painted a base of purple and blue, let it dry, painted a first layer of cloud, let it dry, did another layer of cloud, let it dry, and then finally painted the last layer of cloud. All in all, I really enjoyed making this and I really like the final product. Besides being well executed, it just makes me smile.
The idea behind this piece is that when were little we all have teddy bears. They are there for us whenever we need them to provide us a sense of comfort and safety. As we grow older, we grow out of them. We turn to new methods of comfot. For many of us, this means finding people who we trust, whether it be a friend, partner, mother, father, counselor, or whatever else. These people become our new teddy bears. Without getting too depressing, I found my two teddy bears. However, they recently dropped me like a hot potato. In a sense, they out grew me. Thats what this piece is about. Technically wise, I have a love hate relatonship with this piece. I love the teddy bears. I think the texture I created is really beauitful, and I love the colors I added into the fur. However, I could not for the life of me make the girl look normal. I painted over and started again way to many times. Eventually, I just gave up. Its mostly just the face that bothers me. Everything is shaped wierd, but it was just too hard to get it right when it was so small. Basically, if I just removed the girl I would be in love with this piece. Maybe later on I will paint over her and try again, but for now I cannot bear to think of trying to paint that little itty bitty girl ever again.
Originally, I wasn't too big a fan of this piece. However, it has grown on me. It still kind of looks like something I drew a long time ago, but a better executed version. I really enjoyed making this piece. The heart was so fun to make. Without sounding crazy, I really like drawing gorry things. Blood is just kinda fun to draw (I promise I am not a psycho killer). I am also in love with the shirt. The colors I used compliment the rest of the piece very well. They are bright and vibrant which contrast well with the background and subject matter. I think I did a good job getting the skin tone right. I never tought to add blues to the shadows until now. However, I am super glad that I did because it make the shadows look more realistic than if I used my classic purple. I just realized I didn't use any purple for shadows in this (besides the shirt). I think I am evolving. Anyways, my least favorite part of this is the hole. I just think it doesn't look very realistic. This is mainly because I couldn't look at reference photos without wanted to tear my eyes out and vomit. Had I sucked it up and used reference photos, it probably would have looked a lot better.
This was my first time painting a pallet knife portrait, and I love it. I think that the proportions, skin tone, and shadows make it look very realistic. If you stand far away it actually looks like the person. Starting off, I was very worried about it not looking like my friend. Normally, I draw myself, so if I mess up its not a big deal. However, because this was my friend and not me I didn't want it to look ugly and make them feel disappointed. This being said, I think it looks just like him, and he agrees. Honestly, I am just very proud that it actually looks like him. I also love the texture of the pallet knife. The combination of the color of the background and the texture creates a very soft feel. The organic shapes and texture suits the fact that the piece is a portrait considering the human body and features are organic. The one thing I wish i could change is the eye shape. I feel like they should be more curved and not as close to his brow bone. I also wish his eyes had been open but I didn't want to pester him for more pictures. However, I also kinda like that his eyes are closed because it makes the painting feel somewhat somber which is why I chose to add deep blues and purples in the skin tone and keep the background muted. I also kind of think its boring. Most of my portraits have some kind of alteration or distortion, so it feels weird to make just a plain portrait. However, because this was my first time using oils and a pallet knife to create a portrait, I thought it best to keep it simple. Overall, I really love this piece. It was surprisingly easy, quick, and enjoyable to make.
This project was quite the rollercoaster, and I really don't like rollercoasters. I am never going to draw bricks ever again. Drawing each little rectangle over and over again made me go insane. It was as if each rectangle that I drew dragged me closer and closer to hell. This being said, I actually really like the end result. I love my color pallet. Its very different from previous color pallets I tend to gravitate towards. I think the toilet could be better, but by the time I finished the bricks I was too worn out to care about the toilet. The perspective is kinda off, and it sort of just looks kinda weird. Overall, my favorite thing is the subject. Drawing a nasty bathroom stall sounds exactly like something I would do, so props to Allie for giving me the idea. Because it's a nasty bathroom stall, I am glad that I didn't use realistic colors. The bright colors make the nasty bathroom stall look less nasty. It also brings more interest to the piece because otherwise it would be all grays and kind of sad looking. Also, the colors make me think of space, and it's a space theme bathroom. The shadow coming from the side wall is also another favorite feature. I think it looks very accurate to the actual picture, and it shows that the side wall is not as tall as the back wall (if that makes sense?). It really adds the depth to the space.